remembering Holy Week 2007 - part 1

Lent is over.

Hurray.

so many thoughts running in my head and so many emotions barging their ways through me.

gosh, i hate the post-baptism withdrawal... suddenly, all activity ceases, time is restored to normality... 24 hours a day can feel too long rather than be insufficient for the ever-growing Task List... my mind is actually free to think my own thoughts and tomorrows promise to be days that are not maddeningly hectic anymore. sleep-deprivation is a problem gradually made right ...

I HATE ALL THIS.

i miss Holy Week. :)

Thursday night was amazing. i had never experienced anything like it before.

began with Maundy Thursday Mass (my all-time favourite Mass of the Liturgical Year) as usual, extremely rich and rewarding in experience... Holy Hour was really nice. my knees and joints will disagree but to hell with them. what's one hour of discomfort? then came the packing and sorting in preparation for Saturday's Easter Vigil, which was normal. we even found time to sit at our prata shop and have a decent dinner. next was spending 1-2 hours in the bookshop (I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MANY ROUNDS I WENT IN THERE!!!) hunting for Baptism gifts... AND THEN we went back to 0201 to just collapse... but the church was abuzz with life at that hour past 11pm... i had never stayed in church that late on Maundy Thursday before i guess...

decided i wanted to go pray... entered the Church, found a pew by the side... stephen C was there alone in that pew... i knelt, i spoke to God, for the first time in the whole month, i found a connection again... and i RESTED.... in God, with God, and i knelt there and my knees ached and i continued kneeling and I DIDN'T WANT TO GET UP. i think... i seriously think, if it wasn't for Good Friday's preparations, i would've knelt there for a long, long time. i doubt it'll be for the whole night but that feeling of being with God was just incredible. i had to literally TEAR myself away since people were waiting for me and practically, i know i should head home to work on Good Friday prep.

i love God.

ok, *lost*

to be continued. but i love you, Lord. help me to love you more.... and never let me stray too far from you....

and Morning went and Evening went... two days left.