20072007

it's a Friday and my blogger is finally working here at work.

i am feeling quite sleepy but i suppose that's my own fault, staying up late last night chatting away with my friend.

lately, life has been traumatic, to put it mildly. haha. as i said to several people, it feels like Lent. Mr C said to me what we're going through is a spillover from last Lent.

"I thought we already paid our debts for last Lent," i replied.

this makes me wonder if we are in some way, being superstitious. but i don't think so cos it isn't like that.

well, what does little old me know?

God surely has His reasons for demanding so much out of us at this period. God surely knows why friendships that aren't meant to last, are built.
God surely knows why friendships that mean so much, should end or break.

i have a new discovery - nothing lasts forever. like, duh!!!

so why should i expect or hope otherwise of treasured relationships?

hmmm... i am not bitter or resentful. in fact, i don't feel very much right now. i mean, i don't feel much unhappiness. only sleepiness. :P

but i have to admit that recently, for like the last few months, the overriding emotion in me is one of intense pain. pain of separation in more ways than one. sometimes, i feel like i'm going to get a heart attack because it feels like my muscles are aching inside - pounding away or stabbing away.

it's all hormonal. :P

so somebody sent me an SMS to say it's only going to happen once, this day won't pass by again - 20072007. well yes, i suppose so. what's the big deal? why would i want this day to pass by again when i'm going to get 20082008, 20092009 or 20102010 and ... you get the idea.

half an hour more to freedom!!!! i did so much work today it's incredible. and i am stoned now cos i am deliberately staying off coffee since i already had 2 cups and i know i will have more later.

damn.