All Out of Time

it's been a while... again...

time has been at its dysfunction again.

two weeks ago seem like yesterday while the future already feels like a faded black and white photograph of yesteryears.

i dreamt in mandarin yesterday and held a full conversation in my dream with a fellow colleague. of course, the me in my dream wasn't me. i was really overhearing the conversation and i wasn't even a physical entity and yet there i was, i was watching myself speaking in fluent mandarin, debating some topic and then i was my colleague, rebutting that same debate. i couldn't wake, try as i did.

lately, i haven't been very able to distinguish reality from my dreams. i find myself at some mundane task and then wondering if i had really done something or merely dreamt it up. sometimes, it really takes a while to determine fact from dream.

then again, does it really matter? is this life really real? i know it is but sometimes, i'm still left bewildered and stunned by my surroundings. my family and friends don't feel real, much less, my daily life.

and when time goes out of sync, it just completely screws everything else up further.

yes indeed-o, it was Christmas last month and Easter Vigil last week. or are we going to celebrate Christmas soon, sometime next month and is it going to be Easter Vigil in a couple of months? i guess so.

at the rate things are happening, i'll wake up tomorrow and find myself reading this old post titled, "All Out of Time" written on a 18 June 2007, a whole year ago.