TURNING TWO

Happy Birthday to my dear old blog!

empathride turned two yesterday... :)

beloved lil ol' blog o'mine. :D

doing all the things i've never done before

on the first day of the new year, i did something i have never ever done with anyone before.

in fact, i did something i have never ever done before.

well, i suppose we all do the things we have never done before everyday. for example, i fell down rocks that day and that's something i have never done before either. but that's besides the point cos this other thing that i did is something i have always wanted to do but never ever got to do, (unlike falling down rocks though even that can be contested with) something that i would plan but never be able to achieve and this was done without any real plan but just something that happened to come about.

we wrote at the beach!!! !!!!!! we wrote and wrote at the beach!!!!!!!!!!

i am ecstatic still.

August and i brought our laptops for no other reason other than we had some work/writing to do. i wanted to go to the beach for no other reason other than that i felt i needed that open space for rejuvenation after all the partying and late nights, before i head back to work the next day. we ended up at Sentosa for no other reason other than it was most convenient to get to, strange especially since Sentosa wasn't even an option between Pasir Ris and Changi Village and East Coast Beach, most especially since August was there just the night before for NYE, before our chat on the phone.

but we ended up at Coastes pub, not Cafe Del Mar (thank God!). we sat on high white wooden stools with our laptops on a white table. we were in the sand and the beach was before us. a bottle of white wine cooled us down and then a glass of margarita completely placed me in the beachy mood. he ordered a bottle of red after that killed my beachy mood but i was just contentedly happy with my white and margarita.

"Why do we need to feel joy when all this contentment is making me feel so happy?" i ask him. he says, "Because this is not contentment! It's joy!"

then he says, "Who wouldn't be happy being here with all this?" --> sun, sand, sky, sea.

i thought, "everyone else before you."

so there we were, writing. he wrote more than me. he writes better too. but i enjoyed myself so much. i was in a complete state of bliss.

THIS is something i have always wanted to do but never ever got to do. in the first place, no one else i know write for nothing. in the second place, the guys i've been with don't even like beaches in the first place.

i wanna write some more! and more and more and more!!! on the beach and on the beach only!!!

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at night, we bought cup noodles - it's more economical. and found out we both like instant noodles. why? because we were forbidden to eat it when we were kids. haha. parents should flip and stop prohibiting children from doing things if they only know how rebellious their actions make their children.

while waiting for my noodles to cool down, and we were seated on this concrete steps that head out to the sea, i decided to climb down the rocks into the water. i don't know why.

i slipped towards the end. i didn't even fall, technically speaking. but i slipped a little and fell on my elbow and used my hands to break my fall and got all these cuts. so many multiple cuts! so many, like there were lines all over my palms! but only a few were slightly damaging. i never knew rocks were so sharp. but i like cuts and bruises. so painful but sooooo niiiiice!

that's something i've never done before too.

Waving in 2008

it occurred to me at the dawn of the new year, at about 5.50am on 1 Jan 2008, that i did something similar a year ago.

then, i had resolved to put some distance between the Apostle and myself, only to end up smsing with him till the wee hours of the early New Year's first morn. then, i had laughed at the irony of the situation, one that saw me breaking some personal rules of not making new year's resolutions only to make one and to break it in the same day.

this New Year's Eve, after returning home from Snow White's where i had spent with my close girlfriends, as i usually do every NYE, August and i chatted on the phone till about 5.45am. my bro woke up around 5am to leave for HK. and i felt like i was back in school, when i used to chat on the phone, and sleep for a few hours before waking up for school.

i could even remember that feeling of struggling down the stairs to put on my white canvass school shoes, lugging my heavy backpack and trudging out the door in the chilly morning air to await my bus.

but that's not what this is about.

something momentous came out in the conversation that night. i shall pen it in my journal in case i ever forget.

but the thing that amazes me almost as much as this momentous secret is how i spent NYE doing exactly the same thing i did a year ago.

when a year ago seems like thousands of years ago and at the same time, like it all just happened yesterday.

thank you 2007 for all its ups and downs. for opening my eyes to recognise hypocrites, for teaching me that saying 'yes' to the people i love is not a sacrifice in any way, for giving me lifetime friends and perhaps for helping me let go of those who don't care enough to be in mine.

hello 2008. nothing big and flashy to wave you in. no big excitement or super high feeling. but in that quiet night transitting from the old to the new, i find myself eager to see just what this year will bring.

Hello once again, 2008.