Waving in 2008

it occurred to me at the dawn of the new year, at about 5.50am on 1 Jan 2008, that i did something similar a year ago.

then, i had resolved to put some distance between the Apostle and myself, only to end up smsing with him till the wee hours of the early New Year's first morn. then, i had laughed at the irony of the situation, one that saw me breaking some personal rules of not making new year's resolutions only to make one and to break it in the same day.

this New Year's Eve, after returning home from Snow White's where i had spent with my close girlfriends, as i usually do every NYE, August and i chatted on the phone till about 5.45am. my bro woke up around 5am to leave for HK. and i felt like i was back in school, when i used to chat on the phone, and sleep for a few hours before waking up for school.

i could even remember that feeling of struggling down the stairs to put on my white canvass school shoes, lugging my heavy backpack and trudging out the door in the chilly morning air to await my bus.

but that's not what this is about.

something momentous came out in the conversation that night. i shall pen it in my journal in case i ever forget.

but the thing that amazes me almost as much as this momentous secret is how i spent NYE doing exactly the same thing i did a year ago.

when a year ago seems like thousands of years ago and at the same time, like it all just happened yesterday.

thank you 2007 for all its ups and downs. for opening my eyes to recognise hypocrites, for teaching me that saying 'yes' to the people i love is not a sacrifice in any way, for giving me lifetime friends and perhaps for helping me let go of those who don't care enough to be in mine.

hello 2008. nothing big and flashy to wave you in. no big excitement or super high feeling. but in that quiet night transitting from the old to the new, i find myself eager to see just what this year will bring.

Hello once again, 2008.